Thank god that I am the only person in the world who reads this thing - especially my wife...so here is the latest update on the smoking front - today i smoked 1, yesterday, 3 or 4 halves, day before, had a few beers watching the football so ended up smoking maybe 6/7 right down to the butt - which in itself is not true since I now rip the filter off any cigarette that I smoke, which defeats the purpose in many ways, you could argue, but then I don't need to smoke as much, though this should be a concerted effort in giving up, not trying to control, which obviously is not happening anyway since I am having to sneak around like a schoolboy smoking so that my wife doesn't find out - yes, you guessed it dear non reader, I am having to keep it a secret from my better half. I haven't lied - yet. She has asked me how I am doing, getting on, and I say it's hard and that's it but she hasn't asked me if I have had a smoke.... so, technically, I'm not lying, and in my book, creeping around like a schoolboy is better than lying to the women I'm spending the rest of my life with... yeah, what an argument for maturity and moralistic reasoning. But as i have said, no one reads this, including the better half...(and if you are reading this now, love, hopefully I have given up smoking for real and you where none the wiser about my indiscretions or I am back to being a perfectly content smoker again and you know all about everything... which, of course, you do anyway...)