sometimes, everything just goes too blue, or pink, or green - sometimes brown, when they all intermingle then converge on a single point and explode like some gigantic atomic shitbomb. But, the worst is when it is all blue - that primary emotion, as the colour, envelops everything and only blackness can supply any respite. Then pink, (the two colours of childhood, depending on what side of the fence you tended to be conceived on) with it's red, primary again, and then an ample splash of purity, of light - blood and divinity - why should Christ not wear pink? More suited than pure white, methinks.

But yellow, clean buttercup yellow - a splash of yellow on everything - melting butter on fresh toast - there to disappear, only to be savoured and then remembered.

6 months or thereabouts later and nothing, like the vodka, absolute, nothing, has changed - just older, grumpier and more disenchanted.

Sleep, glorious sleep. Have not been getting my usual 8 hrs the past few days and needed to recuperate, so napped on the sofa while the kids played computer lego - whatever that is.

Here is a doodle that i did while sitting bored in danish class - i like the contentment expressed - standing at the bus stop, with an uplifting thought and an ethereal tune.

so here i will try to add a picture like the dumbass who hit the publish post first... duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhhduhh duhh duhh duhh duhh duhh

I just want to try to add a jpeg - see if the dimensions measure up and what it look like.

I'm only writing this so that it won't be turned off....

Who am I kidding? All the little problems have arisen today - nothing major. In the larger scheme of things, these minuscule annoyances would not annoy me - but today, the larger scheme of things has taken a back seat...